Sometimes you just have to swallow your pride
Let me start off by saying that being a stay-at-home mom is hard. I’m not talking about the mental and physical exhaustion. I mean the financial aspect of it. Living on a single income can be very difficult. Constantly stressing about money and where is all goes is something you deal with. Yes, we were making it on my husband’s income. But, I was tired of “just making it”. I knew something had to change and trying to cut back just wasn’t enough anymore. We literally couldn’t cut back on anything else.
So, I made the decision to go back to work. My husband and I knew that I had to find a job that would cover gas to get to work, daycare, and still have enough to make it worth my time. When a job in the dining department at our university came open, I jumped on it! There are so many benefits to working at a university; holidays off, great pay, health benefits, paid tuition. During my interview I was offered a cashier position and was really excited about it. The hours were great and I was excited about working with the public again.
However, this was short-lived. I got a call from them a week later and they told me the didn’t realize the had already given the position to someone else. By this time, the only position that was left was for food prep behind the scenes. This means that I will be making breakfast, cleaning up, doing dishes, and prepping foods for six hours. I wanted to cry. I am a college lunch lady. How did I get here?
I have a degree in Accounting from an online college. I busted my ass to get that degree! Not to mention the fact that I have taken care of 4 girls 24 hours a day for 6 years! That qualifies me to take on the world, yet I am stuck doing the same damn thing I have been doing at my house for 6 years. Only now I have to wear a freakin’ hair net and naked nails!
This is why I had mentioned in yesterday’s post that getting a job had really lit a fire in me. This is not what I want to do for the rest of my life. However, this is what I have to do for right now. My family needs for me to get a get and bring in extra income. My family deserves to have a little wiggle room financially. I have to swallow my pride and do this until something else comes along. (Let’s just hope it comes along really soon!) But for now, I will be the best damn dishwasher they have ever seen. If I don’t make the most of this job, I will probably drive myself insane. It will be more than I can handle.
If this is what I must do for my family, then I will. I have been sacrificing what I want for them for years now. So, what’s one more thing before I reach my happiness. I will wear a hair net for them. But in the mean time, I will be writing my butt off to make my dreams come true……
Happy Saturday Everyone!